In Fiji I found I felt that I was so blessed to live in Australia where the wage are so high. When I went to Fiji I saw so much poverty as it.Fiji is very 3rd world. Although you wouldn't think so by the above picture. When I was sunbaking on the islands I was speaking to this lovely staff member and she was telling me how they work 14 day weeks and get roughly $2 a day. $2 that is insane! But you know what the strange thing is. All the staff that were there earning $2 a day were the happiest people that I have ever met. They were helpful, friendly and were always laughing. We all worry about $ so times but take a page from the Fijians money isn't everything.
My next trip was to New Zealand bro. I know this is what you would except me to say but I overcame my fears and felt like I became a stronger person for it. I used to suffer from anxiety. And if u suffer from it or know someone who does you will know its crippling. My anxiety ranged from being afaird that I would get sick when I'm out with friends and wreck their evening to be scared to try new things. My anxiety got so bad that I was pike on friends and make up excuses so I didn't have to go out.Traveling was a big step forward for me at this time. I knew I wanted to travel but it still scared me. When I got to newzealand I had allready booked a bungee jump in I was excited and nervous but I couldn't wait. The day came for me to do it and my anxiety kicked in and made me feel sick so I cancelled and changed it to the next day. The next day I gathered up my confidence and walked down to the centre shaking with fear. When I got to the centre I changed to do the Nevis swing and we headed up the mountain.
I felt so sick. I wanted to hurl. I nearly did as I stepped onto the platform. When they dropped me 60m off a cliff face in that moment althought it was filled with sheer terror I felt free.
A lot of people let fear hold them back from doing the things they want to do. I did and do sometimes. But after this experiences I try not to let fear get to me. And I try to give anything a go when I travel. Fear! You don't control me...
After NZ my anxiety took the back seat to my new found confidence and I decided to do my first trip solo.... When traveling
Nz and Fiji I had friends with me but doing europe alone and being so far away from home scared me. I didn't know if I could do it. I wouldn't even go see a movie by my self. For awhile before I booked Europe i tried to get friends to come. No one was keen, had the money or wanted to. Then I got lucky and my brother was like hell yes I will go with you. I was so excited.... I was going to europe it was something that I had always always wanted to do.
We spoke about what we wanted to do and where we wanted to go.The week that we were meant to go he cancelled on me! I was frurious!!! It was my dream to go to Europe and him canceling would stop me going. I'm not gonna lie I was pretty pissed off with him at that moment.
I was speaking to my boss the next day and I told her about the situation. She said these words to me that shock up my perspective "Would you rather go alone to Europe or not go at all?"
Was it really that simple? Could I go alone? My anger flushed away as I said "I would rather go alone" in that moment I knew what I was going to do. I wasnt anxious I just knew it's what I wanted and I was going to go to europe. I'm not going to lie yes when I booked I was scared but excited. Everyone I told that I was traveling alone said to me "aren't you scared? Won't you be lonely? It's so far away what if something happens? Don't you want to share the experience with someone? I couldn't do it". They didn't expess exciement for me just so so much negativity. I didn't get a "Good on you Sarah I'm proud of you for going for your dreams" at all.
When I was in Europe for the first time it was a whole new experience. I wasnt lonely, I wasn't scared.... I was excited, adventours and a explorer. This by far in my life was one of the best things that I have even done. And I'm so thankful for my boss to give me that little push. I prefer traveling alone now. When I was in Europe you wake up in the morning and the day is yours! No one telling you what to do, or where to be, I wasn't following anyone's schedule or having fights cos I didn't want to do what they wanted to do. I got up and said.... "What do I want to do today?" And you know what..., it felt good!
I was more willing to talk to random people...I always knew I was outgoing but I learnt that "traveling Sarah" spoke to anyone. She didn't care.
I spoke to taxi drivers, people on the bus, people on tours that I did ect. It was a bit of an eye opener for me. I realised that I don't have to wait for people to go for my goals. Other people don't control my happiness. If I want something I can go for it!!!! One saying that I have picked up over the years and I'm sure I have used before in this blog is "A good goal should scare but excite you!" And this is what traveling solo does.
When I got back from Europe I found that I wasn't afaird of going to movies by my self, I was more independent and I would get up and say "what do I want to do today?" Don't worry I'm not a bitch. If I was with a friend I wouldn't disregard what they wanted to do. What I'm speaking about is that traveling solo has given me this new found confidence to try things I had never tried before. And I took this confidence back home with me. If I can travel solo any one can do it.
In this trip my luggage was broken into and also lost by the airline. I got lost in Venice for a good serval hours and no one spoke English. These chicks were fighting on the small top deck tour and I was smack bang in the middle of it. I danced on a bar and did shots in Mykonos. I accidently punched a girl. (All stories i will tell u later in my blogs) but what I'm trying to say is this trip changed me as a person. Not only did my confidence sky rocket anything that this trip threw at me I wasn't scared I just breathed and pushed through.
Traveling is a whirlwind... Traveling is life changing.... And has made me grow as a person so much. I am so wonderfully blessed to be able to do it.
Don't take for granted being able to travel. There is a lot of people in this world that will never leave the place they were born.
Go out and explore... We weren't made for one corner of this world....
Love S
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